Beautiful disaster

My life is beautiful disaster.

The army and my love life are intertwined and consume every last molecule of my existence at the moment. So much so that I feel the need to blog about it. Not because I want to hear the encouraging phrases that people say such as "It will be OK" or "You are strong and it will be over before you know it" but more because that is the last thing that I want to hear right now.

I am engaged to the man of my dreams and will marry him in just over 11 months but first the army gets to have its say, seven months deployment overseas. The countdown is on, not only the countdown to our wedding but to the deployment that is "two weeks away". Its me vs. the military. Unlike the civilian clock that ticks at the same slow irritating pace the military clock is always changing, the thought of two weeks being less than 14 days terrifies me.

Lots of military wives make lists of things to do while their significant other is deployed. I am sure I will get there but today is not that day. I just hope that I find it in me to blog as often as possible, no matter how I feel to write at least a little about what I am feeling.

I have lots of people in my life to soothe me and tell me that things will be just fine, I am very lucky that way. Sometimes a girl just wants to be heard. No need for people to provide answers to questions that I never asked.

I can't promise to show you the beautiful side of my life, the army or love right now but I can promise you that I will be honest about how I am feeling about all of those things.



Life.Army.Love